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this book will make you feel things

It’s about love and friendship and silliness.
It’s about pain and cruelty and anxiety.
And we’re going to have some fun.

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Parties are not Madeline's thing.

Being social isn’t her thing. She’s a five-foot eight-inch industrial-strength loser. She’s invisible. She’s no one. She could drop dead in class and no one would notice.

So why does she accept an invitation from someone she barely knows to the party of the year?

Certainly not because Mark Alister is going. Popular, attractive, universally desired Mark Alister. A boy like that would never even look at a trainwreck like her!

But . . . he does! He talks to her! They fall in love! And they live happily ever after. The end.

Yeah — not a chance. Maybe if she lived in a Disney movie. In reality, Madeline has walked straight into a trap — one which no amount of wishing on stars can save her from. Mark is going to make her face everything she’s been hiding from for the past seven years. And the truth about Madeline Parker could either fix her, and make her worthy of being loved . . . or it could kill her.

Or both.

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Equal parts light-hearted and heartbreaking, Life Lost and Found is the story of one girl’s fight to escape a life of isolation, bullying, and anxiety, and make her life into something worth saving . . . or die trying.

This book was written for one reason: to help. 150% of proceeds from all sales are donated to fitting causes.
That extra 50% comes from matching donors.

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75%: The AFSP funds research and supports those affected by suicide. And they're super good at it. Learn more over here.

25%: Funny name, big results. Also known as the Project for Awesome. Raised over $1.5 million in 2015 for 20+ charities including Save the Children & Partners in Health. Learn more over here.


It's over at Amazon.com

The e-book version is just $2.99.
That's less than a half-decent sandwich. Not too shabby!
Mmm... half-decent sandwich...

Should I Get This Book?

Hmm. Tough decision. Here are a few things to consider that might help.

you SHOULD read this book if you:

  • Like reading books about feelings and stuff.

  • Enjoy terms such as "ginormously huge-gantic", "shenaniganza", and "tornadoquaking disasterfeels".

  • Ever get nervous talking to people. Or anxious. Or paralyzed with terror.

  • Have ever been the butt of a joke.

  • Ever cringe at the sudden memory of that one thing you said or did that one time and oh my gosh why would you say or do that thing??

  • Worry that no one would miss you if you died.

  • Enjoy adorable love stories.

  • Are worshiped by a civilization of Lego people.

  • Play video games.

  • Use the word "inconceivable" and it means what you think it means.

you should NOT read this book if you:

  • Are/were the cool kid in school/college and never worry about what people think of you.

  • Look amazing. Like, all the time.

  • Have never been bullied, teased, or told that the world might be better off without you.

  • Have more friends than the country of Estonia has people.

  • Are sent into convulsive fits by the word "butterscotch". Because it's used about five times in this book. And you're probably having convulsive fits right now. Sorry. You should probably see a doctor about that.

  • Never feel hopeless or worry about anything.

  • Think "try harder" is solid advice for anyone dealing with a mental or emotional struggle.

  • Are literally on fire. You should probably see a doctor about that.

You can also read a sample below!

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The Author Person

A.K. Williams lives on a snowy peak in the Andes mountains with a pet walrus by the name of Westley Gunderson.

Well, maybe.

Here's the thing: No one's actually seen the walrus, and we're all pretty sure the Andes aren't located in North America. But there are a couple of kids hanging around and eye-witness reports say that A.K. adores them, quote, "hella lots". In fact, there's a good chance this book was written with the hope of making their souls just a little bit happier and a lot more hopeful. Maybe it can do the same for yours, too?

A.K. has a known fondness for the following: chemically exuberant sugar cereal, Doctor Who, caffeine, Sherlock, The Lizzie Bennet Diaries, space-type-stuff, fantasy-type-stuff, neither-type-stuff, university campuses, John Green and his brother Hank Green (DFTBA), a thing about princesses and brides, a different princess named Zelda, Aperture Science, Robert Downey Jr., Life is Strange, and Chocodile Twinkies. You're welcome for that last one.

A prequel to Life Lost and Found is currently in the works.

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About the Editor

LLF was edited by Katrina Van Tassell Beckstrand. There's more about her over here.